Sunday, 28 August 2016

"I Promise to make you Happy"

"I promise to make you happy" thats what he said, it's been ringing over and over in my head and now, happiness is so far, so far away from my reach. i'm choking on tears thinking how did i let it get this bad but then i console myself saying, if he loved as much as he claimed, our relationship would have weathered the storm. i'm struggling, trying to be brave, trying to keep a strong spirit, but its hard... How do i deal with this? how?

All of this is just random thoughts going through my head, i cannot seem to think about just one thing, its like mind is in riot mode, i am kept awake by endless chatter with my inner self about  the
 could haves, would haves and should haves... but i trust that in due time, all will be well.

Thursday, 26 December 2013

Day 1- Dairy of a broken hearted girl :(

He hasn't called since the last time we met, rumours around that he's cheating on me, I cry myself to sleep most nights. I think about how I deserve better than what I'm getting, but I'm so hooked that I cannot even imagine a life without him. He haunts my dreams, I think about him so freaking much that it scares me. I wish he'd change to see how much I truly love and adore him.